A journey to find out life wants to live

Remembering the days of joy, not so long ago
Those memories just increase grief as I watch the withering of beauty
– The hour Of Death, Reverend Bizarre

For you who has followed this blog from early days (that would be maybe one or two including myself) knows that it all started out as a journey for myself. This journey is far from over but a huge part of the reason for my entries has been to try and grasp and put into words what I learn on my way of rediscovering my place as a human being on this planet and of my place in this human created power hierarchy we call civilisation.

Over the years now I’ve managed to read quite a few books on various topics. From problems (and the understanding) with agriculture to the problems (and understanding) of civilisation, to problems (and the understanding) of patriarchy. All in all I would say it all comes together and fits the same dynamic of civilisation and what civilisation is and stands for; a hierarchy of power and a central ‘force’ is male violence which is used to sustain itself. I for many years never felt satisfied with my place and, well, even though my understanding as to why that was (and is) has become better I feel more alienated than ever while at the same time also feeling like I am coming home. Home to the side of the living.

There is no doubt to me that the dominant culture, the root of what has created industrial civilisation, is insane and most of its members also. I look back at me as insane. I probably am still valued as insane by a whole lot of people out there for arguing the way I do in regards of these topics and thoughts. But nevertheless there are however voices out there that are arguing that they believe civilisation has to be dismantled. And I for one belive they are correct. That sounds a bit tough don’t you think? And does it mean what one might think it means? Well, I don’t know about you but I find these words of American philosopher Derrick Jensen–a man that I have found myself quote every now and then on this blog–sums it up really well ”…to deprive the ability for the rich to steal from the poor and to deprive the powerful from their ability to destroy the world”. I agree with that wholeheartedly.

When you take a stand with the living over our ”human right” (Civilised humans I might add. Indigenous humans has always been seen as not fully human and are usually a ‘mild’ inconvenience that stands in the way of ‘our’ resources) to drive/ride cars, to fly/ride planes, to build golf courses, to vacuum the oceans, to build nuclear power plants, to build atomic weapons, to force atoms to jump through hoops on command, to create plastics, to turn the living into dead commodities. Basically taking a stand against the right to violate others to take resources to sustain a way of human living that never can be sustainable since its fundamental basis is violation, gains you plenty of mean looks and nasty comments and right out contempt and hatred. It’s my understanding that the dominant culture and most of its members are anti-life not necessarily consciously but looking at the collective mind of us civilised and what that creates around us it is the best term I can use.

This culture–the dominant culture in which I and the overwhelming majority of human beings in the ‘developed’ world are born into–will not stop until it has consumed as much as it can, and it won’t take no for an answer when people say this needs to stop, it has mildly put gone off the rails.

Television makes us sick–For a book that takes a deep dive into this and that forever has changed the way I look at technology, read 1978s Four Arguments For the Elimination Of Television by Jerry Mander–the internet makes us sick. However, these technologies themselves stems from an already in place mental sickness, I believe, which the hopi people called the wétiko. A book that takes a deeper look at this, is Colombus and Other Cannbials By Jack D. Forbes for those who are unfamiliar with the concept, I never heard of it until I stumble upon this book. The global economy makes us not only sick, it also murders people on a daily basis. So called ”debt repayment” from ‘developing nations’ to ‘developed nations’ is on its own killing people daily. Other ways of how the wétiko manifests itself can be found in the despicable sex industry. In Kajsa Ekis Ekmans brilliant book Being and Being Bought: Prostitution, Surrogacy and the Split Self we get a powerful and brilliant analysis of the horror and madness of (mostly) us men’s purchase of sexual ‘services’ and the inequality this rests upon between the sexes or the ”buyer class” and the ”sex worker class” if you will. But that is not something we shall talk about. You see someone who actually take a stand to disrupt for example mining, or sexual exploitation or take your best pick of exploitation has to be to silenced. Don’t disrupt the superior belief that everything around us including ourselves exist in so far it can be violated.

We are told we have the right to voice our opinions–sometimes not even that depending on what you voice and where you live and it even breaks down to which sex you are born with as I see it–you are however not allowed to try an make a real change! Move along people! There are skies, oceans, soil and living beings (human beings incl.) that must be exploited! You don’t like it ? Well,  go watch some tv or better yet hang out on internet in one of they many, many ”social” places that resides here. Whatever you do don’t ever recognise what happens in the real physical world were all of us actually live and don’t you dare falling in love with the world, with life. It might be so that you might actually start fighting back and that you are not allowed to do! Horror and shame on you if you dare take a stand for women, for children, for (sane) safe spaces, for living oceans, for clean water, for clean soil, for the dismantle of destructive institutions.

On a side note I have to mention that if the feminist movement has taught me something–or rather helped me understand it more deeply and how it manifests in industrial society–it is the share ruthlessness of male violence that exists everywhere. It’s kind of ironic the numerous times I’ve been a victim of it myself (there is a post somewhere on this subject on its own) yet not seen it, because it is so normalized in this culture that it renders invisible before our very eyes yet the effects are felt and seen daily. From economic to religious to personal. The wétiko among human males is today global. Add to this that we are entering the trashing endgame of industrial civilisation. It will come down either by itself or if someone manage to bring it down and it won’t be nice to have plenty of us men spoon fed this dominant aspect of life, an aspect most of us men (and women too sadly even if women to a greater degree are the receivers of it) take for granted as a natural state of behaving. ”You exist only in so far I can violate you” is the mantra of this culture, a culture manifesting itself as a life style of making communities into dead commodities all made possible by widespread male violence for the most part.

My understanding of the world I live in, my own place and what I can do, is a journey that most likely will continue for a long time–read for as long as I live. To struggle to maintain a kind of sanity in an ever collapsing civilisation and in an ever increasing insane culture that has its members going completely off the rails will be a challenge. Thankfully there are some seriously good people out there whom also was born within the framework of the dominant culture and on a similar path. So one is not alone.

This machine beast was put together by (male) humans and it can be dismantled by humans, well, all of the living can do it and in fact plenty of species are daily doing their fair share to dismantle civilisation. Give grass room to breath and they can break apart asphalt. Give fungus room to live and they can break down concrete. Life wants to live, I have learnt that.

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Users of pornography should rightly be ashamed.

The Prime Directive

Should users of pornography be ashamed? Pornography is the visual representation of the objectification of women and of violence against women. People who get orgasms from pornography are getting orgasms from the exploitation of other human beings. Anyone should be ashamed of reaping the benefits of someone else’s exploitation. Should Westerners be ashamed they’re getting cheap clothes and electronics from actual slave labor? Yes, of course. I would say you are a very dull and insensitive, or a very hateful, person if you didn’t feel some guilt about it.

To a lot of people who believe themselves to be ”modern,” guilt and shame are considered passé, impediments that need to be eliminated. They associate any positive attitude towards guilt or shame as a religious thing, a pre-modern thing, an irrational attitude. So when feminists say that users of pornography should be ashamed, and that the ideal world is a world…

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Woman and Nature: The roaring inside her

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Just want to share a beautifully powerful prologue in the book Woman and Nature: The Roaring Inside Her by Susan Griffin. These sentences below speaks volumes at what is actually a deeply fundamental flaw with the culture that is civilisation. A fundamentally deep flaw with us males brought up in this culture. The dominating culture among us humans on the planet today.

”He says that woman speaks with nature. That she hears voices from under the earth. That wind blows in her ears and trees whisper to her.
That the dead sing through her mouth and the cries of infants are clear to her. But for him this dialogue is over. He says he is not part of this world, that he was set on this world as a stranger. He sets himself apart from woman and nature.
And so it is Goldilocks who goes to the home of the three beers, Little Red Riding Hood who converses with the wolf, Dorothy who be-friends a lion, Snow White who talks to the birds, Cinderella with mice as her allies, the Mermaid who is half fish, Thumbellina courted by a mole. (And when we hear the Navaho chant of the mountain that a grown man sits and smokes with bears and follows directions given to him by squirrels, we are surprised. We had thought only little girls spoke with animals.)

We are the bird’s eggs. Bird’s eggs, flowers, butterflies, rabbits, cows, sheep; we are caterpillars; we are leaves of ivy and sprigs of wallflower.
We are women. We rise from the wave. We are gazelle and doe, elephant and whale, lilies and roses and peach, we are air, we are flame, we are oyster and pearl, we are girls. We are woman and nature. And he says he cannot hear us speak.
But we hear.

First thing I thought of after I read that was a quote from American Environmentalist Writer and Philosopher Derrick Jensen ”The culture as a whole and most of its members are insane. The culture is driven by a death urge, an urge to destroy life.”

They fit nightmarishly well to me.

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Looking For Intelligent Life…

I really find it stunning that so many who look in space for ”intelligent life” (and getting paid to do so) has conflated what they perceive as intelligence with polluting ones habitat.

An amazing conflation.

One can also wonder if they are up for the task to look for ”intelligent life” in space when we live on a planet that is filled with intelligent life they don’t even notice. I right out question what they think is intelligence in the first place. Usually what we refer to as a sign of intelligence is ones ability, either on an individual basis or as a collective, to learn or understand or to deal with new or trying situations. This is something most life on this planet obviously can do. Just look at the very obvious example of how species after species–whether we talk about other animals (besides ourselves) or plants–ability to adapt to climate change or the stunning ability nonhumans have to adapt and survive even after the civilised human society levels their habitats and communities to further what we have taught is ”progress” for our ”intelligent” lifestyle. And yes I’m well aware that species goes extinct in an alarming rate at this point in time. But not due to their lack of intelligence but the mere fact that there is just so much one can do to the ongoing onslaught from industrial civilisation when the whole hivemind of this human society is hell bent on ”progress” over the cliff and beyond into chaos.

With that said, yes, I find it absolutely stunning that intelligence by members of the dominant culture is now being conflated with pollution. I think it’s fair to argue these people are not really looking for intelligence, they could just look out the window from their desk then and see it all over the place, but rather are looking for lifestyles that resemble the civilised human lifestyle and to me that is not a sign of intelligence but stupidity. We are clearly on a slippery slope of absolutely zero intelligence, since there is zero ability to learn or understand or to deal with new or trying situations in this society besides a few voices here and there. Climate change. Resource depletion. Expanding conflicts of male aggression due to these very evident things taking place. Zero adaptation. One would think the elected leaders by the flock would start to see ”hmm maybe this infinite growth is not such a good thing on a finite planet?” but nope… zero of that is happening.

So they are looking for this

pollution

Yeah, this is truly a sign of intelligence or maybe not.

I think its fair to say that people who look for intelligence in space is really looking for stupidity in space and hence they always come up short because the overwhelming majority of species on this planet are not in fact destroying their habitats. So until someone proves me otherwise I will continue to assume that life out there, in what we call space, is not so fancy on acting in the these destructive ways either.

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Internet and mental sickness

In a time when Climate Change is coming to our doorsteps more abruptly than anyone seems to have anticipated. In a time when the cult of the self is exploding among us, especially among the youth. In a time where corporations now wield more power than many governments (and remember the core value of a government is to be a servant of the people. When the government is turned against the people its function has ceased). In a time when the ruling class is more or less made up of people you can’t even mention, because you have no clue who they are any more, having become so distant from the rest of us, from day to day people. In a time where species are losing out in rapid speed. In a time when human languages are erased almost as fast, if not as fast,  as species are becoming extinct. Many sad, sad, sad events coming together in one symphony of fear, sadness & despair. In all of these situations there is even on more layer to add: the problem, as I see it at least, has to do with Internet and mental health, or, should I say, the growth of mental unhealth through Internet cultism.

I’ve noticed over the last two years or so how Internet truly fosters personalities that wholeheartedly evolve around being sick. Mentally sick. As someone who has struggled for years with mental sickness, I find it extremely worrying that what is happening on the Internet is this feeding of personalities evolving around mental sickness. It starts to define who they are. People that might have borderline personality disorder or have depression or have dysphoria (which includes a variety of emotional states of course) post images of themselves looking like they are dying or dead and usually complement them with text, such as, ”having a tough day today” or ”I just want to be me…” or something like that. People then comment things like, ”you are so strong”, ”power hug” and so on. They are creating personalities out of being sick. I think this is very saddening (and worrying). Who they are gets rooted in being not well making it very difficult to ever change or become more at peace with life. Another thing that I believe happens is that feeling ”normal” (and I know we live in a society where we are constantly being told to challenge the ‘norm’ but I use it to describe a state of being yourself that at least is not necessarily centred in severe anxiety attacks or depression 24/7) will feel weird and awkward when who they are is rooted in these conditions and people constantly validating that condition through the Internet.

What then happens if the person does come to terms that this can’t go on? They need to start working with their inner problems. Thought processes need to be replaced. Maybe relations to certain people in life that are simply not good for them need to be cut, and so on. They can feel lost. To not have that mental sickness going on can then itself cause stress or anxiety, due to not feeling comfortable, because who they were was so revolved around not feeling well, and we humans tend do one thing when we get uncomfortable in a situation – we go back to what we know and feel used to.
I would actually argue this phenomenon has a lot in common with drug addiction. When you get out of it and you are sober (or in this case not feeling all these harsh emotions all the time) one gets lost. There is a hole to fill that used to be that old stuff. And many people can’t deal with it and go back to what they knew. Heck there are even political movements more or less created out of mental sickness today. In which the rest of the world have to walk around on eggshells to not upset them or make them feel threatened and so on. This is not fruitful in any shape or form. And yes, I said it but I truly don’t believe it is fruitful at all. I think it is a very worrying development, especially among younger generations, where I think this is more common than among us who are older.

So, as if the planet getting murdered is not enough, there is also a growing community of humans in the civilised world who are further away from the real world than humans have ever been. Lost in a sea of emotions eating them up. Creating personalities created out of mental sickness and feeding this online. To cement who they are is rooted in darkness rather than positivity. And I’m not saying that one has to go around and be happy all the time. Absolutely not. But who you are should not have to be rooted in anxiety, stress, depression as the ”normal state” to be.

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The United STATE of America.

lesbian feminist Magdalen Berns delivers a video on the state of US of A that is very thoughtful. Again many of you might wonder what does this kind of stuff have to do with environmentalism? And again I will say that as long the entire industrial society, across the planet, is steeped in this endless growth economy that is killing the planet, US is the most aggressive that most of us are affected by. Their version is tremendously dangerous and backwards. Globalism that more honestly should be called Americanism is a threat to the land, to cultures, to healthy societies everywhere. Just as she says in the video people should protest the US. We need to get politics back to the nations we actually live in. Break it down into smaller pieces. The bigger these decision making schemes becomes, laid out by those in power, the harder it is to get anyone to care even the slightest for this or that piece of land. And while I am, as you might know who followed this blog for a while, pretty much anticiv I also do care. If there is even a slightest chance of a soft landing during the collapse of industrial civilisation I of course would love to see that happen instead.

Anyway rather than seeing me sit here and write. Here is Magdalen.

and if you don’t see the video here is a link

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a3b1IU4dIJQ

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If you defend porn then you better understand what it is you are defending

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