Porn Kills Love

Yes I have watched porn. I was, one could say, at one point an addict to it. I’ve been clean for a number of years now and was it yet another milestone for me in my own journey to decolonize myself. Anyway, I won’t waste time sitting here talking about that.

Many wants to claim that mainstream pornography is usually ”consensual and caring” but I beg to differ. Why? Well by a quick look at all the many, many ‘free’ porn sites one can clearly see that the most popular videos are some pretty hardcore stuff. Anyway, this entry is not about that either. It’s more what the core of porn is (or how I come to see it with the help of some radical feminist writing from some pretty awesome women. Kajsa Ekis Ekman, Andrea Dworkin, Sheila Jeffrey, Lierre Keith, Marilyn Frye among others and plenty of really great blogs ran by women online).

Porn is promoting the notion that when having sex there always has to be a ‘fucker’ and a ‘fuckee’ ie a dominant part and a receiving part of that domination a submissive if you will. Consensual or not–and on a side not consent is a bit of a weird word to me because it hints towards the fact that you agree to do something that you really don’t want to do–this is the imagery we are supposed to take to heart. To fantasize about. To masturbate too. To have our sexuality shaped around…
One quick look at so called gay porn one finds pretty much a mimic of the hetero normative porn. It follows the same guideline. There is more of often than not a ‘fucker’ and a ‘fuckee’ engaging in whatever they do in front of a camera.

At the core of the porn industry lays the fact to make sure that the female body is (sexually) exploited for profit and to be available 24/7 for the male dominating society we live in. And we men are supposed to take this to heart and reduce ourselves to nothing more than morons that has no other value added to us than to play (and think) with our penises. In fact I’m quite amazed that so many of the men out there in the big world are more often than not defending this industry. An industry that views them as nothing more but a bunch of wankers (literally). You are more than that fellas.

Porn kills love.

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Forget Shorter Showers (Or At Least Shower Until You Feel Clean)

So I came over this video that I think brings about a splendid point in regards of personal change and how, for some reason, it so often in the modern world equals social change but this has never been the case and never will.

Now personally I think it is important to try and live ”more simply” because the industrial lifestyle in itself is something that is not good for us for a number of reasons, but, I will never argue that living more simply changes much in terms of the ongoing slaughter this entire lifestyle made possible by industrialism changes anything because it don’t.

This video explains thing really well I think so hope you enjoy.


made by Jordan Brown who is an activist, artist, musician, and independent film-maker.

His website can be found here:



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The dominant culture is murdering the planet

Going to share a video clip with environmentalist Max Wilbert. A passionate voice and a tireless fighter to stop the destruction of our one and only home, Earth. Home not only to us but millions upon millions of other creatures whom we share home with.

Enough of my writing, here is Max.


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At the core of the machine there is insanity


I believe industrial civilization has to be dismantled. Not an easy thing to say to be honest. I think I have understood this for quite some time, heck, I have even written about it before on this blog. But it is not really easy to fully embrace and come to terms with this and I don’t think I in the past, even if I understood the issues of civilization, fully took to heart what it really means.

For me and most other human beings alive right now it means to cut off the very thing that keeps us alive. It’s just the way it is. It is a life made possible because communities–living breathing communities–outside of the industrial one we are born and raised in are turned from living into dead commodities. It is as simple and honestly as one can put it.

I simply don’t find that okey. I believe this way of life are founded on violence, vicious violence. Cold blooded violence. Most often male violence. Yes, I believe this is a very sex based issue but both sexes benefits in the short term gains of this violence if one embraces this way of life as the way of life we humans were always meant to have. All of evolution happened so we can have smartphones and Internet, evidently. That’s basically what we are told when we go to school and read on evolution. All the time it comes to the point sooner or later that all happened so we now exist and can have what we have.

And so it falls right back to this wondering. This question, that I have come too at least, what the hell are you supposed to do? Ignore it? Talk about it? Write about it? It is an extremely unpopular opinion to have I’ve noticed. Even among so called environmentalists it’s often looked down upon to be of the understanding that solar and wind energy won’t change much about the overall destruction. Living communities still needs to be shunted aside and ultimately killed to get the resources needed to get us our stuff. And as long as there is ”infinite growth” you will always have to build more of everything and you also need resources to maintain service of fixing stuff that breaks down. It just won’t stop as long as you dare not talk about this ”infinite growth” madness that nearly everyone seem to take for granted.

To move on in my own belief why civilization has to be dismantled. At the core of this beast you find ”nuclear energy” and with it the constant hunt to maintain the life style made possible by nuclear electricity. It plays out pretty similar to what we see as a drug addict hunting the next fix. It is producing a lifestyle of insanity because it is based on insanity.

I know I probably sound like a nut. But so far not one single person have ever rationally been able to defend nuclear energy and what it produces, which is electricity we take for granted to heat homes, heat food, heat water or refrigerated food and so on and so forth. Not one. I don’t believe it can be done. John Trudell an Native American author, poet, actor, musician and political activist in a speech he held on the American Columbus day back in what I believe is the year 83 or 84 said about nuclear energy ”…nuclear energy. It is the final assault. Nuclear energy should tell each and everyone of us that they have gone beyond the reasons of sanity, that they are no longer sane. That they no longer deal with the real natural world…” These lines has haunted me since I first heard them. First time I heard them it struck right through me. I could not explain it but what he said right there I could understand. I knew what he meant, yet, I was not ready to fully embrace it but I was part of they. Nuclear energy that produces electricity which is what we chase all the time to power up this machine world, is never going to be sustainable. Because it never was. It is built on a sick belief of what it means to be human (aggressive, dominating, egocentric and so on) and the following lifestyle that needs enormous violence to sustain itself. And as long it is going to be ”infinite growth” it will destroy everything in order to power up itself, at the expense of us all last (and probably the least in terms of numbers) being the ones who are the most dependent on this way of life to survive which usually are the top of the hierarchy. The ones with money. The powerful, the rich. They are the ones we all serve in the end. They set the rules. There is a clearly defined and widely accepted yet often unarticulated hierarchy within civilization and those at the top are the most dependent on this way of life but they also have the most money to buy themselves the most time as long as the economic system is in place and ‘resources’ (incl what they in modern times call human resources) can be bought and sold for money.

While writing these lines I come to think of something we often fear and really don’t want to catch, cancer. Our way of life looks very similar in collective behavior as cancer cells.

It is not easy to take this in. Not for me at least. I need and most people I know, heck, all people I know need civilization because we don’t know how to live without machines. Without electricity. We have some ideas, sure, and I bet many of us can talk about it but me and most others will most likely go under fast. It is reality.

Of course it is not fun to have that understanding but it is also not a fun understanding what is being done to all those ”others” who are forced to get out of the way as we industrial humans collectively of the industrial age destroys more and more of life on this planet.

It’s hard to deal with. But it also feels honest. I guess just add two and two together. Really. Look at the costs of this lifestyle. Look at all of them.

Machines rules the world already, sounds a bit nut right? Perhaps you start thinking of the movie Terminator now and it’s Skynet AI but if you don’t believe me; look at how many machines you have right next to you that you interact with on a daily basis. The one you are either staring at on the table or hold in your hands to read this lines right now for example. Machines rule the world, the human world I should say, and they have the power to destroy everything unless we do something about this beast.

I believe civilization needs to be dismantled and I have no idea how or what to do. But I believe it has to be. Not in order to save my life but to save whatever is going to be left of life on this planet and most likely for future generations of human beings.

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Missing a Friend, a discussion on death

I do not know what happens when we die. The lights may simply go out, and we sleep dreamlessly forever. Or we may dream, and as our bodies decompose our dreams may more and more resemble the dreams of the land, until ours and theirs are all the same…- Derrick Jensen

I miss my friend a lot. It is now over a year ago that he passed away. I would argue by suicide. Perhaps he did not consciously plan it that afternoon after we had just spoken, I was sitting at the pizza place near my new apartment that he had helped me move into that same day. I do believe it was suicide because I know he often spoke about being in states, due to his mental health, of feeling like he was dying and he enjoyed the ”kick” it gave him. I know because we talked about it. He told me. Might sound disgusting but it was highly interesting.

At the same time, he was conflicted about these thoughts. He talked about how one shouldn’t really have to think along those lines and feel so good during such thoughts. I agreed with him one should not, but I also know it is easy to do and I can relate and understand why he did, as much as I can relate to it among so many others as well in today’s industrial maddening human society.

He was so far from alone on feeling like a misanthrope in this society. Of not fitting in, and not wanting to fit in either. He was someone who dearly enjoyed deep discussions upon the issues we face as part of the human species. The problems of civilization (industrial civilization). On Astronomy. His fascination for Queen (yes, the band) and what I brought to our collective music table the insane punk rocker, and now dead, GG Allin, and he had a deep fascination of the beliefs and perceptions of reality of other human cultures than our own.

He was the one that was hooked on quotes such as ”It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society”.

When we hung out we usually discussed all the things above but also at times, usually when we were drinking together, we talked about things that perhaps one doesn’t just bring up to anyone. Like porn addiction, jealousy, self-hatred, among other things, and we talked about death. How death is a very natural part of life. No one lives forever. No one. That goes for civilization as well. I miss all these discussions, you were such a good friend.

It is a lonely place to be when one doesn’t feel at home in one’s surroundings and isn’t able to do much about it. Thoughts on death and the feelings of relief when these thoughts come can be of great help to get through yet another experience of negativity. However, I think everyone should all embrace death, even if they are not necessarily suffering from severe depression or other forms of burdens that might draw one’s attention to it. Death is part of life. It is as natural as being born. We are born, we live, and we die. That is fundamental and we should not fear it. Every solar year we live through the cycle of birth, life and ultimately death. It happens all around us all the time. In seasonal climates, such as where I live myself, first comes spring which is the birth. The sheer beauty of spring and how what we perceive as life slowly returns is so awesome, the chatter of birds returning to the land. Then late spring and early summer, life is growing. The world around us turns green it turns into beautiful scents, it turns into warm evenings and nights and then late summer and early autumn starts. The end of a cycle starts. Beautiful colors, that awesome smell of decaying leafs that have fallen to the ground and the decomposition of those who have died to have their children rise up next cycle. It is not scary. It is beauty.

All stages of a life cycle have their beauty, even death if you ask me.  I wonder if my friend is in a stage of a dreamless sleep or if he is on his way to becoming one with the land. I will not know until it is my turn to leave this material reality. But I do hope we will meet again. I miss you friend.


Into sunrise it will end
Under the starlight we will sleep eternally
Hearing the whispers from the sea
And now when the new day takes the pain
We are free there is no more to tell – Reverend Bizarre

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Totalitarian movements/ideologies

What is a totalitarian movement or ideology?

Well, first I would argue that they consist of similar bases, as in the group sees itself as someone that needs in one way or another to have extra protection. That needs to be elevated above everybody else in society because their way of life, their sense of being is more threatened than everybody else. Their so called ”claim to virtue” is under assault unless steps are taken to make sure nobody can touch them.

Another trait that is very common is that they rely a lot in ”fooling” the public by making up enemies or other forms of threats that are not real. Usually by re-branding people they deem as a threat.

An easy example, because we know much about it, are the nazis and their ”undermensch” title that they branded individuals and whole groups of society they saw as a threat to their ”claim to virtue”.  People of other political groups were targeted, Jews were targeted, unemployed people were targeted, mentally challenged people were targeted and so on and so forth. They of course did not just go out and tell the public ”unemployed people are a problem and need to be dealt with.” That wouldn’t have worked. But teaching people about these dangerous and right out dirty elements of society called undermensch, by educating in schools and so on, slowly but steadily people got taught to not like undermensch and over time, when someone got branded by it you would do the right thing and step away, maybe even call the police. The usage of the word criminal in modern times functions in similar ways. Just hear the word and you will most likely have a ready-made view of that person and what that person is, and it’s rarely positive things you think.

The European Church had their version of this too. The term witch got used in similar ways to make sure that no women who threatened the Churches view of the world got in their ways. Women who were healers, doctors in the old ways of medicine (pagan traditions for example) got targeted. Later on it extended to their husbands and their children and relatives. Again, people were taught that a witch was a bad thing, something to fear and stay away from and call the authorities if you suspected someone to be a witch.

During world war 2 a unit called unit 731 took prisoners, mostly Chinese, under order of the Imperial Japanese Army. Unit 731 and carried out some of the most horrifying experimentations ever done to human beings. How did they get away with all this? How did those working in this unit; soldiers, guards and so on not question the motives of the horrifying acts? By branding the prisoners with the term maruta, basically meaning log in English. A maruta, one was taught, was not really a human being. They were told these humans were ”non-human primates” and hence it was ok to experiment on them. The claim to virtue was this had to be done for Japan to remain victorious and win the war. Prisoners were selected to give a wide cross-section of the population and included ”common criminals”, captured bandits and anti-Japanese partisans, political prisoners and also people rounded up by the Kempeitai military police for alleged ”suspicious activities”. These included infants, the elderly and pregnant women. All of these people branded maruta were no longer to seen as human beings.

(On a side note I can mention that instead of being tried for war crimes, the researchers involved in Unit 731 were secretly given immunity by the U.S. in exchange for the data they gathered through human experimentation. At least 3,000 women, children and men were tortured by this unit alone and there were other units/camps during this time too)

As shown here totalitarian ideologies and concepts have existed in many forms and to this day this goes on. I would argue a fairly new concept and showcase of a totalitarian movement is the usage of the term TERF. Here, the saying goes, a TERF (and apparently there is a TERF movement) are out to exterminate trans people. TERFs threaten transgenderist’s own claim to virtue. TERFs are enemies that need to be dealt with.

Again, what happens here is that people who for any reason are not in alignment with the faith of the totalitarian ideology/movement, in this case transgenderism, are potential threats that need to be dealt with. Those branded with the word TERF are usually women and especially homosexual women who for obvious reasons are not into dating human males–no matter what those males claim to be–but in extension anyone who simply doesn’t just bow down to the mindset of transgenderism can be given this label, and as we have seen time and again with these other examples, suddenly it’s ok to threaten and bully. Personhood is removed from the victims of these titles put forward by these movements.

There is a saying in the western world that came about after world war 2 ”never again”, yet society fails to see underneath the titles of these movements time and again. Most likely nazism will never happen again on a big scale but that won’t stop new forms of totalitarian ideas/world views to sprout and gain political power. It seems members of the dominant culture are drawn to this type of mindset time and again.





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Infinite Madness

I live in the outskirts of a city. I live in an apartment. Not that long ago I was sitting outside on the balcony enjoying the late evening of summer. It is beautiful outside. I was watching the night-sky, the little I could see of it. The sun were still lighting up the horizon and light pollution from street lights did its very best to ruin the beautiful blanket we all have above at night.

I was thinking, as I sat there, how fast the growth of industrial society have gone and those across the planet who freely or not so freely are forced into it and how fast the destruction is ongoing.

I am 40+ now, well 41 to be exact, and I remember a time during my youth (during my teens and early adulthood) how it was easy to get a place to live. You could get an apartment on the day basically. This was in the 90s. Fast forward to today and I just read in the news that in general there are 200 people applying on one apartment these days. Talk about being overpopulated. In my own lifetime so far we have gone from having space to in general 200 people fighting over a place to live. And it’s counting. This seems to be a pretty constant factor all across the industrial world. infinite growth means infinite number of humans. Everything tied nicely together to the infinite growth economy. It don’t take a rocket scientist to figure out that we humans, and more to the point industrial humans, are way out of touch with reality. The collective mind (the hive mind) among us industrial humans is making us behave as cancer cells. Grow until you kill the host.

I can’t help but tie this in with the understanding that civilizations–and this is especially true of industrial civilization–themselves are characteristics by the growth of cities and cities are characterized by the growth of people. It never ends with these kind of social setups, does it? They grow and grow until they collapse. Our collective mindset is so out of touch with the rest of life on the planet. Destroy your landbase and you destroy yourself. The landbase is not made up by concrete and asphalt. It’s other species, its other forms of life. Together we all make it possible to live on this planet.

It is not that hard to figure out why about 180 species goes extinct every day or why the rainforest keeps diminishing or why more and more of Indonesian forests goes to become palmoil fields or why more and more humans have to go to prisons for nonhuman animals–we are taught to call them zoos–to see ”wild animals”. It’s ridiculous. We are by this infinite madness of infinite number of humans that are tied to the religion of the infinite growth economy eradicating everything around us. Some might argue that, well, we are building higher buildings more than expanding the cities themselves. Yes this is true but does not really matter in terms of more mouths to feed right? It had not been a problem if we humans did not eat, sleep or shit anywhere. But we do.

This fanatical belief  that one can have infinite growth (and must have or else capitalism will fail) on a finite planet is destroying everything.

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